I’m a little worried. I’ve made a decision, I’ve opened a new chapter in my life, and I’m not sure if it was a good thing or not. Today, I have a delivery coming my way, and it might be something beautiful and good, or it might be a tool of destruction and pain in my life. I’m not sure at all which it will be. Other people who deal with it call it a destructive pattern, or an addiction. They compare it to being hooked on crack. And here, me, as a pastor, I’ve opened my soul up to it.
I ordered a Blackberry, and it’s scheduled to arrive today.
I’m afraid. Very afraid. Am I strong enough to handle it? I’ve always approached this issue from a standpoint of staunch abstinence. What will become of me? Will I be an addict, with the shakes from email withdrawal? Or will it propel me towards organizational greatness?
Actually, I know the answer. It’s neither.
But it’s funny how I can get so attached to stuff, even before I have it. It’s funny how stuff is a center for conversation with others. When it’s all said and done, it’s just a phone. It’s just a tool, a thing.
But I’m still excited it’s coming.