I don’t want to get on Jesus wrong side. Period. I read verses 19-14 in John 18, and the religious leaders have crossed the line. Jesus doesn’t take them on the way I would, yelling and intimidating. He just brings the truth, raw, unvarnished and sharp as a knife.
I think that is what I often fear the most. I can put up with a bully, full of themselves and trying to act like they have power. But when someone has the truth and brings it into a part of my life where I am guilty, off kilter, and wrong; that brings fear to my heart. It brings a requirement to repent, turn around, and go the other way. My pride hates that. And pride leads to fear.
Jesus often stands in a courtroom in my life, with me putting Him on trial, blaming Him for all sorts of things. Often He takes it with mercy and grace and is so kind to me. But at other times, it is just like the scene in this passage, with Him delivering complete truth in such a way that I feel cut in half.
Honestly, I’m so glad He does. I want Him to be King. I really do. And I’m glad when He does. Not right away. But eventually I come around to it. Truth often hurts, but it always heals. Always.